The life of one toy is a hecktic and abused one. You get played with hard i mean very hard for months on months and then all of a sudden you just get thrown to the way side to never be remembered aagain. This is a story of a very small unimportant toy and her journey to the top of the toy list.
It was a cold winter day sometime back in the early 2014's and Kelly owned me and thought that i was the da bomb, we use to spend endless nights just staying up and looking at one another trying to find something to do to keep us both awake. She would take me everywhere i would be in here back pocket on every trip to the grocericy store and everytime she went out i was there with her. It was an amazing lfe we were like two peas in a pod. But it wasnt long until Kelly realized that i wasnt going to offer here everything under the sun that most toys could give her. I was lame the only color i had was pink and it wasnt a very good paint job it was cheap and i was starting to fade from the spots she would rub me coming in and out of her back pocket. I had a clear tube that when she bought me was like crystals you could see through i even prided myself on being able to show a rainbow if light went through my tube. Now the best perk about me was I had a compartment that seemed to have beans or rice or something in it. Now Kelly was little bit a strange one and she would just sit there and stare at the ball on top of the tube and shake me and listen to the rice or beans bounce back and forth she didnt know how to react or what to do when the noise just kept going on and on, Why she ever threw me out i dont know why. the last glances i got of Kelly where from the drivers side window of her reaching her hands out toward me trying to grab over the center console but it was to late i was flying out the window at what seemed to be astronomical speeds must have been 90 or even more all i know is those bean were going a crazy it was being bounced around harder and faster then Kelly had come close to doing. I smacked the ground and just starting rolling i Didnt know what i was going to do know i had nothing to live for my best friend had done nothing but let me just run out of that window she didnt try once to save me from the fate that about to ensue. You know the more i think about it Kelly had been in Passenger seat and i came out the Driver sides.
Monday, February 10, 2014
Sunday, February 9, 2014
Living on the Fly
You know I'm gonna have a good day and all I wanna do is get by today ain't nobody try today its like I'm caught in a song that will never end its kinda like when I was out there doing my own things and nobody was on my back the weight of the world was light and all k could do was complain about how bad my back was about to here I wish it got easier people I wish I could you that its all going to be a bed a roses but it isn't its a difficult road out there and we all just got on ice skate hoping that its going to a glide now do I know exactly what's happening in NY life no I honestly do not have a clue but I know when it all said and done I want to be out there and live I'm like most off you I'm afraid of change I'm afraid that the life I live is just fake and like a parents I don't want yo be stuck here. I'm honest I've always wanted to travel and I think the beat laid out plans for your life is going to no plan just let it take it where ever it leads you. So here's is my words of wisdom the the unwise. Life is short it is full of ups and down full of struggles its going yo through s curve ball at you when ever it can so be prepare be ready for your plans to change be content with not knowing what tomorrow may be because you don't know even the best plans are ruined by something like a slower driver or even the outfit you picked to go out in. I'm not the smartest person in this world and I will never claim to be but what I do know is that I'm happy finally once in realized that I'll never know there is no point in trying to figure it out just live it on the fly
Friday, February 7, 2014
Statement Response
Personal Credo #1
As I grew up I've been taught many many lessons by my parents my grandparents, and even my coaches some ranging from always untie you shoes before you put them on, or always give them your best effort and they wont be able to say anything about it, but some of the greatest advice I've even been told comes from my Grandpa and his favorite quote for me and my older cousins," Boys just use some Common Sense." It has always stuck with me and I believe that simple quote is what structures my life today. Some people like to pull out a calender and put everything down that they have to do and make sure that the plans are laid out in a nice neat order so they never miss a thing. Now me I believe the best way to live your life Is Never plan anything out, Wing it, Make it up as you go. Its brings you one less stress not having to worrying about what you have planned for the day, or where you have to go. It also fits directly into the lifestyle of todays day in age where things change regularly and there is no rhyme or reason to them. Planning is something that just consumes your day with ignorance.
Response
I chose to read the Be Cool to the Pizza Dude, and I loved it, it kind of hit home for me not that I was a pizza dilevery guy oranything but just the things she tied into the piece of work. Starting off with letting him cut her off in traffic now i dont agree with her here but she does make a point, I dont care who cuts me off in traffic if its the Pizza Guy or a Priest they are going to hear a piece of my mind but in the same aspect i do it all the time to people so i have no right to get upset. Now what I see as a flaw with Sarah's piece is I know pizza dudes and they complain all the time about how far peoples house are and that they always get big tips from them but hey there gas is free they can do a delivery and just swing by the house or go to the store for a few mins and its not out of there way or using up any gas they just write if off and get paid for in the next week. I always tip big because yes i could of drove the 5 minutes to the store but hey why not have him or her bring the pizza to me. I think that disagreement with someones credo is completely fine, we are going to have differences and we are going to struggle with how someone looks at life it is because we grew up in different parts of the country or if it is because we had a different home life everythign can factor in but its the people that you agree with that become your friends it not like im going to go out and kill the people i disagree with or anything i just dont believe what they believe and thats fine it just wasnt in my plan, well lets face it i never plan anything its all just a freewrite.
As I grew up I've been taught many many lessons by my parents my grandparents, and even my coaches some ranging from always untie you shoes before you put them on, or always give them your best effort and they wont be able to say anything about it, but some of the greatest advice I've even been told comes from my Grandpa and his favorite quote for me and my older cousins," Boys just use some Common Sense." It has always stuck with me and I believe that simple quote is what structures my life today. Some people like to pull out a calender and put everything down that they have to do and make sure that the plans are laid out in a nice neat order so they never miss a thing. Now me I believe the best way to live your life Is Never plan anything out, Wing it, Make it up as you go. Its brings you one less stress not having to worrying about what you have planned for the day, or where you have to go. It also fits directly into the lifestyle of todays day in age where things change regularly and there is no rhyme or reason to them. Planning is something that just consumes your day with ignorance.
Response
I chose to read the Be Cool to the Pizza Dude, and I loved it, it kind of hit home for me not that I was a pizza dilevery guy oranything but just the things she tied into the piece of work. Starting off with letting him cut her off in traffic now i dont agree with her here but she does make a point, I dont care who cuts me off in traffic if its the Pizza Guy or a Priest they are going to hear a piece of my mind but in the same aspect i do it all the time to people so i have no right to get upset. Now what I see as a flaw with Sarah's piece is I know pizza dudes and they complain all the time about how far peoples house are and that they always get big tips from them but hey there gas is free they can do a delivery and just swing by the house or go to the store for a few mins and its not out of there way or using up any gas they just write if off and get paid for in the next week. I always tip big because yes i could of drove the 5 minutes to the store but hey why not have him or her bring the pizza to me. I think that disagreement with someones credo is completely fine, we are going to have differences and we are going to struggle with how someone looks at life it is because we grew up in different parts of the country or if it is because we had a different home life everythign can factor in but its the people that you agree with that become your friends it not like im going to go out and kill the people i disagree with or anything i just dont believe what they believe and thats fine it just wasnt in my plan, well lets face it i never plan anything its all just a freewrite.
What do I believe IN?
This is such a broad subject for me to take down and with out even a hint of something to think about. I guess if it was up to me I probably wouldnt believe ni a lot of things its strange teh way life can twist in turn the things of your past and present to make you believe something completely different. I guess thats why i turn to in the present type of beliefs, some would call me a bandwagoner and others would just say i dont have my mind made up yet. So here is just a few things that i believe in tryihng to get them off my chest and on paper. The first thing that i beleive in and compliment myself on is Never Plan anything, always make your plans up on the fly, that way when something comes up your not having to back track and try and make up excuses because we have all heard the terrible excuse that comes with a missed plan or a i cant come type of text or call. I guess the next one would be funny and kind of strange but living the life I have been delt and the factors that some people know about me is Never Drink Alone, maybe not the best subject for a college paper but hey im in college and ill learned that drinking alone can only lead to struggles and problems down the road for your family your life and everything in b/w. So now that i have a few down lets try getting deeper, or we could just go on with the easy ones The left lane is for passing people, as a driver who does not have the cleanest record you would think something like this does not frustrate me but you all now like me that when you are stuck behind someone in the fast lane and they wont move its like they are talking or sending sign language to the driver beside cause its been like 2 mins they have been driving beside them i mean comon its the left lane if it was a lane road and you drove at the same spped to the left of someone boom collision so why do it down the interstate. You got in the left lane to start a mission not to pitty patty. So thats a pretty good one right theere i may have to come back to it ^^^^^^*******. I also believe in predestiony to an exant so i probably should not write about that i believe that yes it has already been in a plan for you to do something and the piece of the puzzle are already put in place for you know you have a choice to either follow the path or go off stray from it so the who predestined thing is flawed on that aspect and i would get to religious if i went on that tangent. I believe that You should travel when your young, why do i believe this because you are young its a time in your life that you are trying to figure out what you are wanting to do with your life and yes it is good to settle down in the same spot that you have always been comfortable at ande that you know taht you will have a job and your family is always there to back you up if you need it, but lets look at the fact on you arent getting younger so why not enjoy it while you still can there is two programs that i know of one in Austrilia and the other in New Zealand that will actually gice you a year long visa and they will pay you to live in both countries if you are from the US but you have to do it before you are 31 years old, Legit right but you are comfortable with the way your life is. Traveling is something that not many get to do once you start a career then you are stuck there for the next 30 years or until you retire which ever comes first. So why would you want to wait 30 years before you start traveling why not enjoy it when your younger you may even find a place that you enjoy much better than your home town or the people around you may change the way you live your life who knows the stress may be so much less. The Grass is always Greener on the Other Side, Music is an Escape Goat,
Wednesday, February 5, 2014
Just my Attempt to Get to YOU
Sitting In a Eroding Cave Just Waiting for a Collapse
Ash Tray filling up with sorrows
Pockets begin to Jingle
Voices begin to fade away
Start squinting twist from side to side
LYING with her to just fill the Void
Tell me now where was my fault
In loving you with all my whole heart
Words are behinds a lock a key
And you are the only one who holds the key.
Lips are beginning to dry out they cant STAY close forever
So please tell me now where was my fault
I never told you that I would force you.
Feels like the door just slammed on me
It begins to bleed and you give me salt
Still STANDING here waiting for you to call
Be more like the man I was made to be
Legs starts to get small tremble in them
Thoughts enter my minds like if its Real?
Pain courses through the cuts you open
Frostbite will overtake me before I go AWAY
Another one down, starting to overflow now
Its almost time to roll away this stone
Im tired of living on that island
Always told me I would find you here again
Just trying to fill this HOLE.
Wonderwall
Its a typicall wednesday night now. I have nothing to do, im sitting around doing just what i want and then it hits me why dont i get out this pen and paper and take down a nothe. Or why dont i just get out a color pencil and right you don somehting so here goes. YOu always told me how i could be myself and how i wouls never have to change to [lease you, and i was dumb enough to believe you, now im just sitting out on my own not worrying who is looking down at me. I can remember the first time you told me to get out, how you rip my clothes and said im done as i walked out the door. Or when i told you that i didnt want anything more than to just see your face and you said fuck no. Excuse my language but i have to give the context. If you dont like the way im about to write then i suggest you just stop reading right about now because im not going to take it easy on you or take a break in what i wrte to make it fit into you way of wrighting. i am who i am and my style is my style you can hate it or you can love it i dont care either way, wont hurt my felling. Tell me im a terrible writers you think that is going to hurt my feelings i dont have that feeling anymore after you came in and rip it out of my clothers out of my mind when i told you that i didnt want anything else to do with you you came back you took a look into my soul and you found the deepest darkest secrets that i thought i would never sahare and you bleted them out of my mouth like i had a gun to my headd. You told me that you would take it to your grave but i never kdid much believe you now im out here on my own and you dont even see me anymore. Why did you twist my life why did the truth just seem to come out when i was with you. Was it vecause i knew who you were or waas it all just a game that we were playing just trying to make that guape like out boy Mac Miller. Know whne i say things like this i dont much know why or how i got to this place but i know im listening to my favorite music through my headphones and all i can think about it the times we would cruise down the interstae in you Camaro or the days that we spend out in brighton just living the life. Im still going to come out and build that draw bridge from you front door to the sycimore tree in the front yard it the perfect spot for an awesome tree house. Ill never forgot my 40th birthday we all spent out there at your place, it was the most expensive birthday present i have ever bought for all of us only put me back 350 bucks but we had the most amazing day ever. These days just seem to come and go liek the memories I have never realy lost. I can relive the drive we had into pleasant hope when i had no reason in driving.
Now im going to change the subject just like the days when i wasnt out on the streets i hait up everyone i knew i tried to get eveyrthing i could i was just living for the day i never knew there was people out there who cared for me or a group that would take me in i just rean my life like it was out there doing nothing right or that there were people that told me they were proud of me and now im missing out the time that i should be craishing but i just need somehting to keep me striaght it just like the booze that is on y couter top or the bottle of whiskey that lives beside my night stand. I just got nothing figured out all that i have figured out is that i have nothing figured out. So what im going to do is run this life im going to show you that i never did need you and the only thing that you did was hold me back like the life was driving away from me like a gazelle when i leaps across the priare and tries to escape the grasp of the Cheetah and only the strong will survive if you stubble or if you are weak you will always be capature and your mistakes willnever be forgot you will be forgot just do what you do and make that rush make who you are. I love you and i never will leave you.
Billbaords are out there, they taunt you as you drive down the interstate all they want form you is to just take a time out of you busy life and try something they have to offer you. Its not much different than something like a commercial or liek a radio ad they all just come out and shove it in your face like they have nothing better to do then to just say buy me. Im going to go in a little more positve state here, imagine if you would that you are living on top of a billboard what would you means of life be. Would you even worry about a blanket or do you think someone would be afraid of the dark. I mean i only say they would be afraid of the dark would be if one of those super briht spotlight were to burn out and then you might be able to get some sleep . Now i guress it would really depend on what kind of billboard you lived on if it would be cool or not, I mean in my personal experience if i was living on a billboard because i was an alcholic and i was trying to get better but was forced to get on a sign that was all about crown royal or something like that i would probably hate it and my fate would come from a short fall off the top of the railing because i couldnt take it that long.
Now im going to change the subject just like the days when i wasnt out on the streets i hait up everyone i knew i tried to get eveyrthing i could i was just living for the day i never knew there was people out there who cared for me or a group that would take me in i just rean my life like it was out there doing nothing right or that there were people that told me they were proud of me and now im missing out the time that i should be craishing but i just need somehting to keep me striaght it just like the booze that is on y couter top or the bottle of whiskey that lives beside my night stand. I just got nothing figured out all that i have figured out is that i have nothing figured out. So what im going to do is run this life im going to show you that i never did need you and the only thing that you did was hold me back like the life was driving away from me like a gazelle when i leaps across the priare and tries to escape the grasp of the Cheetah and only the strong will survive if you stubble or if you are weak you will always be capature and your mistakes willnever be forgot you will be forgot just do what you do and make that rush make who you are. I love you and i never will leave you.
Billbaords are out there, they taunt you as you drive down the interstate all they want form you is to just take a time out of you busy life and try something they have to offer you. Its not much different than something like a commercial or liek a radio ad they all just come out and shove it in your face like they have nothing better to do then to just say buy me. Im going to go in a little more positve state here, imagine if you would that you are living on top of a billboard what would you means of life be. Would you even worry about a blanket or do you think someone would be afraid of the dark. I mean i only say they would be afraid of the dark would be if one of those super briht spotlight were to burn out and then you might be able to get some sleep . Now i guress it would really depend on what kind of billboard you lived on if it would be cool or not, I mean in my personal experience if i was living on a billboard because i was an alcholic and i was trying to get better but was forced to get on a sign that was all about crown royal or something like that i would probably hate it and my fate would come from a short fall off the top of the railing because i couldnt take it that long.
Monday, February 3, 2014
Travel
So today we tried out a thing called mind mapping and i was chossing to discuss my plans on travel. Now as a young boy i have always wanted to travel it seemed like everyone in my family and everyone around me was content with just stay ing in the same little town and doing the same thing they have done for years without any changes to it even if the hated what they did. Know i believed this was because they are scared of cahnge now me im going to through a crazy curve ball at you. I want to travel i am starting out my traveling goals with moving to indonesia for the month of JULY and seeing how that changes my life for the better or maybe even for the worse we will never know until i get there. Then my next goal is Im trying to get a few investor to back me so I can travel to Hawaii hopefully before the end of the year and start a Sport Camp in Waimea. Now i know this may seem crazy for a college kids but i have crunched the number i have planned it out to the T and would be in the black within 5 years at a or if i did the bare minimum i would be in the black by 10 years not that long for what i am asking for. Me and my partner have already for the land we would like to start on it is a beautiful 3 acre plot of land with a nice size house that would double as a child care facuitly as well as a place for the management to live at. We are looking to have start up cost are roughly 500000 dollars. Some may be looking at this and saying your crazy, but this is my goal.
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